April 26, 2008

Tight and right

Early Saturday morning, and I just finished a lushious meal. My legs are a little tired from the jump rope workout I did today, but I can just feel how it's helping my body. I'm really loving my workout routines lately. I'm seeing some great results and feeling that healthy glow.

Was feeling pretty sexy this week. Went out in this lush outfit, deep colors, snug short skirt, short little sweater. I've been trying a few different cuts and hair styles the last year or two, seeing what makes me feel my hottest!! Whatever I'm doing, it's working! Men are flirting with me left and right, and a few women too! hehe

I might have to choose Me a new lover soon. We'll have to see how that unfolds... Until then, I'm going to keep playing with my subs and slavelettes... you'll have to keep Mistress busy!

April 17, 2008

Stone cold deep

Mistress is happy today, because one of my fave slaves is having a birthday next week, and we've just had a chance to catch up! I sent him off a special little gift in snail mail today, I think he'll like it quite a bit. Had to warn him though - don't open it in front of anyone else - otherwise he might be a bit embarrassed! haha

Friday is almost here, just hours away. Saw the movie "No Country for Old Men" last night, and was not disappointed. Strange how a movie will stay resident, far after viewing. There are questions still in my mind about different characters.

I was slightly disappointed in one way. My blog readers know I've got a little thing for Javier Bardem. After seeing this movie, I doubt I'll be having those late night sessions, wrapping Myself around his fine form, at least in My mind! Might have to rent another one of his films to shake off the vibe of Anton Chigurh. Yes, he did win the Oscar for this performance. Although it did kill this Girl's libido a bit. Chigurh is one big f*cking bad ass, lemme tell ya!!

Looking forward to sliding fingers through your synapses this weekend...

April 13, 2008

And this goodbye

This is going to be a difficult article to write.

A close friend of Mine, and fellow Mistress, was called today with very distressing news. One of her slaves, who was extremely depressed, was pressuring to meet outside of Niteflirt, romanticizing their relationship. She let him know that they needed to take a break from sessioning together because he was becoming too demanding, and she suggested he get counseling to address his depression. She'd been concerned about him too due to this, and he was asking for more extreme humiliation during sessions. To the point of making My Mistress friend uncomfortable.

Today my friend received a call from the man's family, that the client had committed suicide. In their hurt and anger, they lay blame for his demise partially at My Mistress friend's doorstep. Telling her that she's hurting people. Wanting to hold her accountable, because at present, it hurt too much to hold the man himself accountable to his own actions.

It brings alot of uncomfortable feelings forth, dealing with her sadness over the news, and also being held accountable for someone choosing to harm themselves fatally.

As a Mistress, I hold Myself accountable for My actions. I also realize that when a slave client picks up their dick, and their credit card to call me, they know the deal. I provide a service, specialized to clientele who enjoy BDSM roleplay and session work. I'm not qualified as a psychologist, a doctor, a priest... although many times these skills weave into the work.

I have clients who hide their discomfort with the real world, by self medicating with drugs, alcohol, adrenalin, extreme fantasy, humiliation, you name it. As Ani Difranco says, "Any tool is a weapon, if you hold it right."

Today I feel sadness for the man who ended this life just this week. I know my Mistress friend is hurting too, and it's difficult to see her in this pain. We all ask ourselves in these situations... could I have done more.

I love my job, and understand that there is dark and light to this work. Below are resources that may help if you feel the need:

National Suicide Hotlines USA
United States of America
Toll-Free / 24 hours a day / 7 days a week
1-800-SUICIDE , also 1-800-273-TALK

The Alcohol Hotline - 1-800-ALCOHOL

National Institute on Drug Abuse Helpline 1-800-662-4357

I feel honored to claim the task of Mistress with my submissives. I also need to know you come to Me for the right reasons. And ultimately, this has to be decided by you. I offer prayers of guidance and light in your search.

April 6, 2008

Early morning ramble

It's early in the wee hours of Sunday morning, and Mistress is feeling a little hungry and a bit tired. I've been following an exercise and diet system for a few weeks now. Summer's on the way, and Mistress wants to be a firm grrl in tan skin!

Although, I can say that Boca burgers, ground turkey breast, and low fat cottage cheese, can become a little tedious after awhile!!

*think of yourself firm, tan, toned... *

Most of my weekend has been spent with 2 of my clients, one on a very long forced intox call, the other being a sweet little piggy, talking about giving away his money just gives him the biggest... uh well you know :)

I think Mistress needs a little coffee this morning.. where is my sissy maid...